I dream that I have a girlfriend and I’m really excited because it’s my very first relationship, I try my best but I neglect her without realizing it, she texts me because she’s in mortal danger, she woke up with a pile of heavy rocks balanced precariously over her head, but I’m too busy buying action figures to answer my texts. We break up and I want her back, but I don’t know what I could ever do to deserve her.
Tag: anxiety
Small Anxieties Combined
I dream that it’s the last week of school and I’m doing an internship in a really big building, almost a skyscraper. I don’t really like the job, it’s a bit too corporate and heartless, but my cousin is there of course and she’s not letting me go home until I clean my room; my own bed is indeed on the ground floor.
That night I play a videogame set in the same building, I find a secret room full of pizzas but my HP bar is full and I don’t have much use for them. The morning after I’m determined to find the same room in the real building, but I find a long line of sick people waiting outside the main doors. I’m not wearing a mask so I cover my face with both hands and beg to be let inside because I’m an employee. The ground floor has turned into a hospital and I can’t find my room anymore.
Something Like This Might Have Actually Happened In High School.
I dream that I’m on a school trip, sharing a hotel room with a bunch of girls. We’re all in the same giant bed and I just want to sleep but the girls are chatting and giggling and listening to music, it’s driving me crazy and I finally snap. Everyone is mad at me because I’m so weird and no fun. The morning after the girls are mysteriously well rested while I’m a wreck.
Then I dream that I’m in Noelle Stevenson’s house watching a Pinocchio movie, it’s dark and entertaining but when Noelle arrives with some friends I stop watching because I don’t want to be a bore. He’s annoyed at me anyway and that’s fair, after all I’m so slow and irritating. We’re all about to go out and party but I’m not dressed yet, and then I have to run back because I forgot the puppy he gave me. There’s a lot of puppies in the house though, all white with black and brown spots. I grab one hoping it’s mine.
Film Is Superior Anyway
(I kept waking up so I don’t remember many details, just a feeling of anxiety, it was… grainy, like old film.
This Is Me Being Anxious About Not Sending Enough Resumés
I dream that one morning I find a line of booths along the road just outside my window, a dozen or so of them. They have a seat and screens for people to make video calls, I assume especially old people who don’t own a smartphone. Behind each booth there’s a young employee ready to help. I realize this would have been a great job for me, why didn’t I apply? Maybe I can tell the phone company they didn’t get my resumé by mistake.
This Is What Happens When You Take Too Many Trains In Your Life
I dream that my mom and I are waiting in a train station; the next train home is 1 hour and 20 minutes away and we wait and wait and wait. I eventually realize that we bought the wrong tickets, but it’s too late: the train comes, and it’s a blue tricycle attached to some wagons. My mother jumps on the tricycle and start pedaling, I run after her and yell to stop, she veers out of the tracks and pedals down a hill… I wake up with a jolt.
All This Anxiety, And It’s All Stupid
I dream that I’m a guest at a new school, an alarm sound and all the students get up and calmly go to their assigned exits, I’m not sure what to do. I finally get out of the building and I see Dolores Umbridge being walked away in handcuffs. I get home and now thousands of students are here too, I need to go to the bathroom because I got my period but they won’t leave, I’m yelling at them and feeling like an asshole.
I end up staying for a few days in an apartment with Jamie from Bly Manor; I fall desperately in love with her, but she ignores me, I have to leave soon and all she cares about is a little girl that she’s gonna adopt. Back at home, and now my sister is mad at me too because I’m eating risotto in the bathroom.
Not Even Worth Writing Down
(I had to go up very early in the morning so I dreamed about being late and failing miserably at everything. The usual.)
A Classic
I dream that I have to go meet my Gran early in the morning −and I actually did!−
It’s a disaster. I’m trying to get dressed and two hours have passed without me noticing. I run out and then realize I forgot my mask. I eventually wake up in a huff, and if I knew that I would get a do-over in real life.
Touching One’s Face Gives Me Anxiety Now I Wonder Why
I dream that I’m at school, but also the school is my home and we’re all adults. I say how unsettling it is that it’s November 1st already, I swear it was December just a moment ago. Don’t you feel time is going to fast? I ask one of my schoolmates. No, he says, because I know how to make my life meaningful, and you should too. I can’t do that, I say, because I have ADHD.
Soon afterwards people start vomiting and, trying to give meaning to my life, I rush to help them. It turns out they ate coleslaw last night, the mayonnaise was made in a futuristic transparent machine –bis as a rocketship– and they had to wait 10 minutes and not touch their faces before it was safe to eat it. They didn’t wait.
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