I dream that I’m visiting a beautiful house with a male friend. I look out of the window and we’re above the city and I can see a marble fountain. I look for my camera, it’s super small for some reason. I look out the window again and now there’s only an ugly tree blocking the view. It’s always been like that, my friend says, were you drunk?
Then he turns into a girl and I fall in love with her.
I dream that I find a white mouse under my bed, I’m kind of afraid but I have no choice, I scoop it up and put it outside my bedroom.
Then I dream that I’m trying a machine that beeps whenever I’m walking past someone romantically compatible. I try to approach these potential partners but it goes horribly, finally a girl tells me I’m too ugly to date.
I’m at school; there is a “problematic” boy and a teacher provokes him into being violent, all so he can expel him. I’m outraged, I know he has a difficult home situation and doesn’t deserve this. I also think I’m in love with him. He’s blonde and not exactly handsome. I tell my teachers that I lost all respect for them.
I walk away with the boy. He has a job at a liquor store just right beside the store I work in, it must have been destiny. I tell him I haven’t worked in months though, because of the lockdown*. I go home and I’m bare footed, I keep walking on dog poop and it’s awful. I come across a group of volunteers cleaning the streets and picking up all the poop and I thank them from the bottom of my heart.
Back at school the teachers are organizing a D&D game that is also a play. I’m on the losers’ side, and when the play starts our costumes are cheap and ugly while our rivals looks magnificent. We are still going to beat them though.
*Alas, true. But also, how am I allowed to go to school in the dream and not to work??
My penpal C. is visiting again, all my schoolmates are excited because she’s quite popular, apparently? I feel guilty because we used to be so close and now we barely talk anymore.
I find an old journal that describes a trip to Paris C. and I took together ten years ago. It was incredibly romantic, I’d even asked everyone at school to help me confess my love, and that’s why they are all so excited now, they still remember it.
I decide to recapture the magic by accompanying her to the airport, I tell her I’m so sorry she stayed so little. There are other Asian people at the airport, but we suddenly realize they are all robots and she’s the only human. She ‘s worried climbing up the ladder to the plane, she thinks everyone is gonna be racist because of Coronavirus.
It’s late evening and I’m walking down a street in my town. All along the street there are shelves upon shelves from a store that is closing up, a failing business, probably. I want to look through the shelves but I’m afraid it’s not allowed. Eventually I see among the other products a stand with stickers and I rush over: I don’t care if they’re not for sale, I want all the damn stickers!
DECADE DREAM JOURNAL 