I dream that it’s the last week of school and I’m planning to skip my finals. Again. (I’m fascinated at this point, nothing like this ever happened during my actual high school finals, so it’s obviously a manifestation of guilt and anxiety, maybe because I dropped out of college? But then why HS?) I also dream about a wonderfully round lady teacher hugging me and I’m just leaning into it because “I’ll take my affection where I can get it”.
Tag: recurring
Small Anxieties Combined
I dream that it’s the last week of school and I’m doing an internship in a really big building, almost a skyscraper. I don’t really like the job, it’s a bit too corporate and heartless, but my cousin is there of course and she’s not letting me go home until I clean my room; my own bed is indeed on the ground floor.
That night I play a videogame set in the same building, I find a secret room full of pizzas but my HP bar is full and I don’t have much use for them. The morning after I’m determined to find the same room in the real building, but I find a long line of sick people waiting outside the main doors. I’m not wearing a mask so I cover my face with both hands and beg to be let inside because I’m an employee. The ground floor has turned into a hospital and I can’t find my room anymore.
But Why Is It Always Venice?!
I dream that my penpal C. is visiting, we go to the local supermarket together and I promise I’ll buy her and her sister twin chocolate eggs (she doesn’t have a sister IRL). I say we should go to Venice next, she’s a bit worried because the sky is dark and stormy. How far away is it anyway, she asks. I say don’t worry, I’ll rent a carriage. A man shows up with a two horse carriage and takes us to Venice in less than ten minutes. C. is fascinated and walks around aimlessly, she takes a purple lily from a stand, the florist looks at me pointedly and I take out my wallet. I don’t have any money in it, just paper scraps.
Yes, I Know She Doesn’t Have Children In Real Life.
I dream that Harry Potter doesn’t want to be Harry anymore, much to his teachers’ dismay he gets rid of the scar and the glasses and goes on to live as a tall, slender Frodo Baggins wearing capri pants.
Then I dream that I’m eating lunch at the beach, I’m wearing jeans over my one-piece swimsuit because I’m not comfortable showing my legs. I go to the bathroom and try to pee, but realize I’m on my period and I’ll have to take off the swimsuit. Now I’m sitting on the toilet wearing a hoodie, then someone walks in the bathroom; I recognize him immediately, he’s Oprah’s son. He just won’t leave, he’s looking at me and I know I’ll have to sue him and his mother.
It’s Been Years Since I’ve Been In Venice And It Haunts Me Still.
I dream that I don’t wanna go to school, I want to stay home and watch girls kiss on Lucifer. My dad is obviously pissed, I fake a cough and my sister jumps to my defense, says I obviously have Covid and it would be cruel to make me go.
We go to Venice instead. My sister and I are on a water bus and we miss our stop, I see my dad looking at us from the crowd, his disappointed face is a lion’s. We get off at the next stop, my sister is freaking out because we don’t know where we are, but I’m the Venice expert after all, I guess we’re near the train station. Still, I hope it’s all just a bad dream and I’ll wake up safely in my bed, instead of having to travel all the way back home. I jump up and down, trying to wake up with no avail. We go buy train tickets, the journey is gonna be several hours long and we won’t be back home until next morning. I groan and groan and wake up safely in my bed.
Something Like This Might Have Actually Happened In High School.
I dream that I’m on a school trip, sharing a hotel room with a bunch of girls. We’re all in the same giant bed and I just want to sleep but the girls are chatting and giggling and listening to music, it’s driving me crazy and I finally snap. Everyone is mad at me because I’m so weird and no fun. The morning after the girls are mysteriously well rested while I’m a wreck.
Then I dream that I’m in Noelle Stevenson’s house watching a Pinocchio movie, it’s dark and entertaining but when Noelle arrives with some friends I stop watching because I don’t want to be a bore. He’s annoyed at me anyway and that’s fair, after all I’m so slow and irritating. We’re all about to go out and party but I’m not dressed yet, and then I have to run back because I forgot the puppy he gave me. There’s a lot of puppies in the house though, all white with black and brown spots. I grab one hoping it’s mine.
Fun Times.
I dream that my brother wants to go to Kpop idol college (HILARIOUS). I dream once again about needing to get my high school diploma (I GOT IT TWO DECADES AGO GIVE IT A REST BRAIN!!). And I dream about an old man watching me poop (TYPICAL).
Same, Girl, Same.
I dream that it’s the last day of school (but it’s May! I think privately); some sort of guerrilla is once again happening outside the building. I go home and I’m welcomed by a basket of rescue kittens: oh, right, I should bring them to the vet at some point. I sit down to play Sims, my current family has a child with green skin and a “hate teenagers” personality trait. Indeed, she kills a teen, and I have to move the whole family next to a beach amusement park.
Hey, At Least School Is Over
I dream that it’s the last day of school, I stay behind with a visiting student from West Asia; his name is Ana and he’s really sweet, I feel we have a connection. We watch several Person of Interest episodes until he says it’s time for him to take a plane and leave. I give him a book about the history of religions as a partying gift.
I want to go home too but there’s unrest in the streets, guerrilla fighting and things are on fire. Some boys shoot and miss with a sniper rifle from a balcony, they’re giggling. It’s pouring rain.
An Eventful Day I Guess
I dream that I’m at school, it’s a three hour class and everybody else is tired and bored, but I’m very excited because the teacher started writing in Japanese on the blackboard and I want to show off the little Japanese I know. Finally it’s time for a break, but before recess all the girls have to go through an ob-gyn visit. When it’s my turn I tell the doctor I have my period, he says “You’re excused [dramatic pause] this time.”
I go to my cousin’s house, bringing a stray mama cat with two kittens I found. Brie Larson is there because she goes to my school, I think this is an important fact that I’ll need to write on this very dream blog, even though people could just google where Brie Larson goes to school and find out where I’m from. Later I go back to collect the kittens, I kinda don’t want to separate them from their mama but she died in the meantime, so everything turned out okay.
I go to the supermarket with my cousin. I’m wearing only flip flops on socks and it starts raining outside, so I sit in a corner and start putting on my shoes. Some old ladies start teasing my cousin because her mom died. I tell them to fuck off. My cousin thanks me.
DECADE DREAM JOURNAL 