As You Can Tell I Really Like Weddings.

I dream that I’m getting married to my high school sweetheart under a tree in bloom. We’re both wearing suits, mine is powder blue. My dad is officiating. I know I’m gonna regret this later but at the moment I’m feeling very apathetic so I might as well go through with it.

After the ceremony I just want to go home, preferably to my own while my husband goes to his home and we never speak about this again. He insists we go see his parents first, and while they’re really surprised and happy about the wedding, I can already tell they’re gonna hate me.

Feeling Less Than? C’est Moi!

I dream that I’m meeting with my high school best friend, M. I’m proud to show her how much of a grownup I am, I even pay for our Uber. I used to have a job this summer, I tell her. We stop at the department store, there’s a crowd in front of the entrance, nobody is wearing a mask which makes me a little nervous. We sneak inside and see a bunch of elegant people sitting at round tables. We’re embarrassed to realize we’ve crashed a wedding reception. Who gets married inside a department store anyway?

Guess What I’m Anxious About Today

I walk to the store, but once inside I see it’s a mix between it and my old job at the vet clinic. There is a young man at the counter, I buy something and he gives me change from the old cash register I’ve used so many times. I’m a bit annoyed seeing that he doesn’t use gloves to handle the money.

I try to be nice to him anyway, I ask where my old buddy the cat is and he says I can go in the back to look for her. I see a ramp of stairs with a long-haired tabby sitting on it, I call her name (I can’t remember it but it started with an “S”) and she jumps in my arms. Then I see my old boss, the vet’s wife, coming out from a door and I don’t want to be caught in here again when I should be quarantined, so I leave in a hurry.

I’m walking back home and it’s a beautiful spring day, the sky is a perfect blue. I realize with horror there are too many people in town, why is nobody respecting the lockdown?! I come across a whole wedding gathering, people are crowding around the groom and wife and clapping and taking pictures. I have to walk between them and I hold my breath, hoping and praying I won’t be infected.

The Mayor walks past me with the police, I wish they’re gonna arrest everybody. I go home and decide to self-quarantine in my room for the next two weeks, because I really want my dad to be safe.